My dark side calleth.....

hubby's return delay..... yet again! getting sick of blogging abt it, but.... I CAN'T HELP IT!!! no wonder i'm anakin [see Quiz: What Star Wars Character Are You?]

i was totally pissed last nite when he missed his flight... and the thing is [beside his numerous delays], he cancelled his flight at 9pm cos he left shenzhen at 830 to catch the flight at 945 in HK.... how NOT to miss? *shake head* and he never called when he said he would, whether he managed to get on the flight or not.... i waited till 1045pm and called him, only to find him back in shenzhen! in the 1hr45mins he can't even find the time to call me and let me know? and before i could say anything, he said he have to go.... toilet and DA BIAN!!! aaarrrgghhh~~~~~~~

i having problems dealing with his never-come-to-pass promises of return... and worse, despite being instructed by my pastor to call me everyday which he did initally, it ends up i'm the one who called him.... his "reason", he's busy.... i seriously dun feel i'm being valued... his work seems so much more impt... i felt like i'm a monument placed at home, no maintainence needed!! harlo, even a monument u also have to dust it rite? -_-"

and today i was so pissed, when i was talking to my pastor's wife.... i actually let out "what the F***!" siao liao~~~~

yup i can hear the dark side calling to me, louder and louder........... -_-"

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Anakin Skywalker

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I forgot my doggie!!!

wake up 5plus in the morn, laying on bed.... something is amiss... nope, not cos i've been sleeping alone for almost 2mths... wat's wrong?

suddenly jumped up!!! oooh nooooo............ i'm going for a retreat tis sun till tues with hubby, and my inlaws are NOT ard!!!! aaaaarrrggghhh....... i was so caught up with whether will hubby come back on time, i totally forgotten abt my doggie!!!! *pull hair*

called hubby (at 8+ lah, i not so evil to wake him up so early).... he only realised when i told him! whole day couldn't locate his parents, who are touring dunnoe where now in china.... called my groomer, nope she dun do boarding cos she has 4 dogs of her own liao.... check internet for pet hotels..... but..... but... one of my colleagues said his friend sent his dog to one and came back with fleas!!! *cry*

okie i think i can go pull hair now..... -_-"

Poem: Morn Came Silently...

morn came silently,
without a trace,
none of the sun's glory....

sky open widely,
water came pouring,
all of heaven seems weeping....

on bed lonely,
soft toy staring,
pillow besides me mourning....

Nonsensical Poem #2

the sun is shining,
early in the morning,
dressed up, make up,
i decided to perk up...

walking in the morn cool,
just next to a school,
wolf whistles i heard,
ignoring it, i din even turn....

whistles came not once but thrice,
then a loud yell "hey big t***!"
no need for his comment on my anatomy
i quietly scream "shut up u small d***!"

ooh my eyes... my eyes......

wake up tis morn and can hardly open my eyes, still painful.... so close it and rest abit... and i dozed off!!! end result: LATE for work again.... sigh....

whole day at work, could hardly open my eyes cos of the pain.... now then i realised a person can actually work with eyes half open! but to be on the safe side, i got my designer to do all the cutting needed.... wait can't see properly dunnoe wat i cut off.... -_-"

and the worse thing is, even tho i am able to work with half open eyes.... the lure of dozing off DOUBLE! *yawn*

i hate specs!!!

woke up with sore eyes... not really red but teary and very pain!!! decided against going into office.... and being lazy to walk almost 2 busstop to my regular doc, i went to the one next block....

scenario #1 --- at the clinic
clinic assistant took over my id card... "oh u got the new card... how much u pay for it?"
"it's free..."
"huh? it's FOC? I thot gotta pay like 100+ to get the new one?"
"they'll send u a letter to renew it for free when u hit 30....." [grrr.... in my heart]
"really har? u're 30??!!"
"actually i'm thirty-*beep*..." [u think i'll tell the world how old i am on net? wahahahahaa]
"ooh i thot u're my age...." she's look like she's in her mid-20s....

scenario #2 --- at the convenience store
needed soda, i need something sweet to go with the yucky cough mixture!! okie it's a lame excuse... :P

at the cashier....
"$4.55 pls..."
dig out $$ and hand over...
"xiao mei mei ur change..."
[roll eyes in my heart] took change... while i'm putting away the change....
"xiao mei mei today no school har?"
"..." [i can't believe my ears]
"i'm working liao..." [still in unbelief]

and these are the reason why i HATE to wear specs!!!! but with my stupid sore eyes, i have to stay off contact for 2 wks!! aaarrrrrggghhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

another note: my boss called me xiao mei mei when i wasn't in office once.... he think i dunnoe??!! hmph!!!

Quiz: Personality Test

Your Type is ESFP

Extroverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
Strength of Perference %
67 38 88 44

"Where's the party?" ESFPs love people, excitement, telling stories and having fun. The spontaneous, impulsive nature of this type is almost always entertaining. And ESFPs love to entertain -- on stage, at work, and/or at home. Social gatherings are an energy boost to these "people" people.

SPs sometimes think and talk in more of a spider-web approach. Several of my ESFP friends jump from thought to thought in mid-sentence, touching here or there in a manner that's almost incoherent to the listener, but will eventually cover the waterfront by skipping on impulse from one piece of information to another. It's really quite fascinating.

New! ESFPs are attracted to new ideas, new fashions, new gadgets, new ______. Perhaps it's the newness of life that attracts ESFPs to elementary education, especially to preschool and kindergarten.

ESFPs love to talk to people about people. Some of the most colorful storytellers are ESFPs. Their down-to-earth, often homespun wit reflects a mischievous benevolence.

Almost every ESFP loves to talk. Some can be identified by the twenty minute conversation required to ask or answer a simple factual question.

Functional Analysis:

Extraverted Sensing
The dominant function of ESFPs is concerned with the reality that is perceived through the senses. This type's prime directive is to examine the tangible through taste, touch, sight, feeling and hearing. ESFPs' need for new experiences surely results from this function. Feeling gives focus to the collected information, producing the amiable nature of this type. As perceivers, ESFPs do not linger on moral concerns unless it is in service of a Greater Good and/or a unifying cause.

Introverted Feeling
Feeling, which tends to decision-making in the interest of individual beings, is auxiliary to sensing. As with all introverted functions, feeling for ESFPs has a surreal, cryptic, quintessential nature. It is more often implied than verbally expressed, more apparent in countenance and deed rather than word or creed. Feeling takes care that playful pokes and pranks do no harm to the victim.

Extraverted Thinking
This tertiary function is at the ready to give definitive answers when the world requires them. It provides a measure of balance to Introverted Feeling, allowing the ESFP some level of boundary and protection from those who would take advantage. When overused or overestimated, however, Thinking becomes a liability. ESFPs do well to seek out confirmation of the soundness of tough-minded decisions.

Introverted iNtuition
This function is least visible. As is the nature of the inferior (fourth) function, ESFP intuition lacks a sense of balance. This type seems most successful in deducing patterns and seeing connections only after a thorough examination of the facts (which process appears quite unorganized and haphazard to non-SPs). Although some ESFPs may develop such abilities, the mastery of logic, analysis and abstraction is usually difficult and wearying, and not very much fun.

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nonsensical poem #1

wake up early,
nua in bed,
see my alarm ticking away,
wash and brush,
with eyes closed,
can't affod to scare myself cold...

feed my doggie,
feed myself,
kopi and loti kaya spread,
on the teebee,
hear the news,
nothing interesting to catch my muse...

nua on sofa,
feeling shiok,
the teebee still on in mindless mode,
hear my doggie,
run and play,
suddenly jump up, "GOSH! I'm LATE!!"

delay upon delay....

hubby has been delayed again..... *sigh* supposed to be back last fri midnite.... am i upset? nope, disappointed yes.... cos he does have a very valid reason.... he supposed to go from shenzhen to HK for his flight back, but he couldn't clear the custom cos he was running a high fever. immediately sent to hospital and drip....

tat's the thing abt china doctors.... flu drip, fever drip.... drip is all they have?! anw he just discharged yest, today supposed to do another xray and .... yes, another drip! he won't be able to clear custom until he get a doctor's certification. ooh well.... tis is china after SARS....

i can't help but to wonder, why?? delays upon delays... is God trying to say something??!! if so, i need an explaination of the parable.... -_-"

do i miss him or do i miss him being ard?

the past long wkend has been a trip to depression valley for me.... i was so depressed tat i shut myself up at home for the past 3 days, not willing to see anyone.... hubby is still not back, wat was supposed to be a less than 2 wks biz trip has been delayed to 1 mth... for over 2wks i heard all sort of reasons, all valid no doubt. Still it doesn't mean i won't get upset.... hey i'm a woman, emotions triumph over logic....

some wonder why am i so upset? it's a biz trip.... he's working his butt out for me, for us.... the delays are due to circumstances tat's not within his control.... i guess it's not the fact he's away... i do enjoy the occasional 1-2 wk of freedom.... but it's the fact he's away for so long... his promises of return tat never comes to pass.... the fact tat no one drive me to work (except for cab drivers).... the fact tat no one is around for me....

so do i miss him or do i miss him being ard? perhaps both....

p.s.: he said he got the ticket, just have to confirm flight.... and wat can i say?? he got a open ticket valid for 3mths.... -_-"